Breaking up with a lover
When I first met him … I was in junior high, I was only 14. And don’t ask his age! It was only later that I realized that I had thrown myself into the fire. Everyone said I was too young for this draw. In fact, there’s never any age appropriateness involved in a relationship like this. At first, I only shared my little secret with close friends. I was just having fun with him. How stupid was I? I couldn’t tell my parents. I knew in a way that you’d be rejected. In the beginning, we were meeting very rarely in secluded places. Then the number of our meetings increased. The arrow was out of the bow. Yes, I loved him. I always had the same thought in mind; “I’m not his prisoner, and I can leave whenever I want.” I’m so mindless. What happened in the end happened. One night my mom caught us in bed. He didn’t get mad, he didn’t yell, he just took a quick advice. I told you bitterly that it would not be possible to forbid us to be together.
It’s been years, but we’re getting more and more connected. Or rather, I’m attached to it. As you can imagine, he didn’t care. I’ve always been the loser in the last year. He just gave me fake happiness. I have everything … I fought over him, I got really sick because of him. First I learned to love her, then I learned to hate her. Even when I don’t want to be together, she’s still there for me. I’ll tell you what: sometimes I would willingly run after him, and after looking street by street, we’d meet again longingly. He’s toreded my will. I got a call with my family, my relatives. And most of my friends hated him. Even I’m despiced by the smell of my body and soul sometimes. Every touch of my lips, I was stealing from him. He was getting better every time, and I was getting worse. And yet I couldn’t leave the tour.
In fact, I’ve tried many times to break up, and in all of them, the transformation has been stronger than the last. I squirmed in his absence, trying to get used to the parting, but it never left my mind. I ate my nails, it wasn’t enough; I started nuts, separation made me gain weight. You wouldn’t even believe it, but even now, he’s right next to me. But I swear in front of all of you, and I promise: Either he’s going to let me go, or I’m going to !…
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